Alright, so on this episode of Thursday…

Now that I have made it past the hurdle that is the ‘Daily Prompt’ and I’ve managed to stuff peanut butter into the shell of the dogs old bone, I can sit to really write.

As of late, there is a shadowy cloud of doubt swirling around in my soul. For an empowered fire sign, this is a very worrisome thing. Annually, I attract this energy around my inception date and it causes things albeit positive to leave this residual icky debt feeling behind.

Example, yesterday I got a new job. I have been asking the universe for this outcome and it responded positively. Then, overnight I received the news of yet another distant connection passing away. As I became myself this morning, the pattern of ‘checks and balances’ is extremely present.

‘Checks and Balances’ in the energy world refers to the separation of a wielder from their synergistic co-constraint relationships.

What?!

Ok, Imagine if you will that there are two kinds of ‘things’ that exist. Just two. The things that exist as material things, Durables– and then there are the things that exist for awhile, Perishables.

Durables remain in existence with no energetic throughput– a computer, your phone, a casio watch. All of these things can be removed from their energy source, yet when you re-introduce to a power source they come back to life, most of the time.

In contrast, perishables persist only so long as there is a constant source of energy throughput. Water flows openly down the river, until the humans build a dam and it pools. Severing the connection of life sustaining survival below.

‘Checks’ are our constraints to maintain balance and control. ‘Balances’ are our co-constraints keeping things maintained and keeping us from losing our shit.

Much as our physical self dislikes being retrained, we sure do love the restraints that keep us safe and sound. Everything from our basic energy, to our romantic partnerships and networking skills are based on this consistent energy shift of ‘checks and balances’.

When the co-constraints of checks and balances are working properly, there is cohesion and synergy. This synergy then creates the ‘perishable’ energy which is the shadowed creation of our outward aura.

Have you ever been in a situation where you felt so uncomfortable but you were unable to communicate why– or been so infatuated with another person that their very presence created endless joy?

Both of these are examples of synergy. The ‘durable’ meeting the ‘perishable’ in required circumstances. Those of us who are sensitive to energy fields outside of our own, we feel these synaps with the changing of the planetary positions, the moon cycles and cosmic events. Physically they take a toll on us, just as Depression or Excitement would.

Just as the fable of magic goes, there is a price for the power you wield. The shift is constantly felt by those who choose to accept their access to it. Just as Geralt is bonded to Princess Cirilla as her sworn warden.

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Today the shift has taken me into a shadowy place. Although I feel strong and secure, my mind constantly wonders to a place of self-doubt and irregulation.

These are the times when it is most difficult to function. Although everything outwardly appears to be alright, I stand ever cautious of the all too known downfall. I understand greatly that physically the actions of the recent days have been in no way my fault, but on the same token it leaves one to wonder what the complications of the universe on a single mortal are.

Id love to hear your thoughts. Lets talk about it!