What positive emotion do you feel most often?

Happy Saturday.

I hope this finds you in peace from where-ever you’re reading from. Today, we are met with an opportunity to explore our emotions. I’m game.

Emotions are a tricky tale to tell, especially when you lack the ability to hide the expressions on your face. That’s right, I am the proud owner of the “wears it on her sleeve” club.

Positivity is something that I make an active effort to outwardly display. I am naturally built to look highly irregulated and ready for battle, at all times.

The he 43 muscles in my face are so Germanic in nature, smiling legitimately makes my face hurt.

Inside the shell is a different story. I am filled to the brim with all of the usual human stuff, but I was born different. My brain develops emotions differently than normal people. You see, I am Autistic and I have ADHD.

Wait, what?!

Not all deformations are skin deep. Instead, some of them are formed during our prenatal process and confused for outward defiance as we are progressing through childhood. It was 1982, and they weren’t checking kids for mental health issues.

Regardless, my damage happens to be exactly where our base emotions form. I lack the ability to control the flares of my emotions, both positive and negative. Yet, because of a rather ‘lights-out’ childhood being ignored and misunderstood , I have learned some pretty inconvenient coping mechanisms.

If you think it’s weird reading it, try living it. Constant unemployment isn’t a positive life.

I am capable of feeling most emotions, when the circumstances are correct. My moods and emotions generate from my environment.

I was 40 by the time I figured this out.

Yet, todays question brings us to the most positive emotion I display most often. My answer may shock you.

Stillness.

The positive emotion I display most often is STILLNESS.

It takes everything being nominal, and an act of the heavens to get to a state of stillness. Stillness is peace, and love. It’s the essence of nothing that brings me everything.

Within the stillness I am capable of slowing everything down just enough to focus and reverberate on the same wavelength. Stillness allows me to touch the face of the ones I love, and connect into their energy. Stillness allows me to shut off my overwhelming sporadic energy and focus it into another who needs it. The transference of love energy, calming energy or protective energy.

Positivity and happiness reside within the stillness of the mind, and the absence of threats.

I’ve forgotten where I was going with this now, so I’m going to awkwardly end it before I go out further on a tangent. The tics are strong this morning.

K, bye 👋 – 🍋💋