How have you adapted to the changes brought on by the Covid-19 pandemic?

I rarely leave my house alone anymore. Fuck all that outside and peopling…

Yeah, it leads to a really lonely and isolated dull lifestyle. But so does having severe anxiety and feeling like you don’t belong or are unwanted in the first place.

So here’s to another boring Tuesday where I get to spend another 14 hours alone cooped up in my thoughts with the fucking dog and a stack of job applications I just assume not fill out to avoid the denial at this point.

This is what I get for being authentically me. I’d hope something would give, but alas…. We’ve crossed the one year mark here and I’m no further than I was 12 months ago.

Just as Moses sat upon the rocks of Mt. Sinai feeling unworthy of two sons and a wife, I sit in Phoenix feeling unworthy of anything.

I remember a time when people wanted to call my name and see me. Now… all of that has died.